Category Archives: Cancer

Does Midlife Begin When You Hit Menopause?

Posted on April 3, 2022 by bookjunkie

My sister is 50 but hasn’t hit menopause yet and has a remarkable amount of energy. The energy she has is comparable to what I had in my twenties which makes me wonder why I’m so defective. We share 50% … Continue reading →

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The 21st Anniversary of My Very First Major Operation

Posted on March 31, 2022 by bookjunkie

It’s crazy to think that around this time 21 years ago I was rushed to hospital and they had to perform an emergency appendectomy. It was my very first time under the knife and pretty much a traumatic nightmare. A … Continue reading →

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Is This Old Age?

Posted on March 31, 2022 by bookjunkie

I refuse to accept that I’m old at just 51. But these days, whenever I struggle to wake up, with all the muscles and joints in my upper body aching, I feel old. When my mum was 51 she looked … Continue reading →

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Thank You Nalie

Posted on March 23, 2022 by bookjunkie

I was shocked to see this farewell on my Instagram feed today. One of the saddest things about finding cancer support online is loosing your friends. Knowing someone online can be so powerful, because you kinda know their souls. You … Continue reading →

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Identity

Posted on February 12, 2022 by bookjunkie

In Singapore your identify is vey much tied to the job title you hold, the company you work for, your marital status and the number of children you have. As such I feel very much on the margins. Very much … Continue reading →

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Feeling Extreme Anxiety & Worthlessness

Posted on January 19, 2019 by bookjunkie

Been feeling especially insecure lately. Exceptionally down emotionally. Don’t feel like a worthy human being. Or at least in this world that values superficial things and status. This world where bullies thrive and aggression is rewarded. I just want peace … Continue reading →

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My 3rd Cancerversary

Posted on January 5, 2019 by bookjunkie

Not sure how WordPress works anymore as I haven’t written for so long, everything feels strange. I was discouraged as I spent so much time on deleting spam and updating the tech stuff. Just want to write to offload some … Continue reading →

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My Fears

Posted on April 16, 2018 by bookjunkie

I feel choked by fear and I felt that by writing it down I’ll be able to loosen the grip. Haven’t written in a while, but have been very active (more like addicted) on Instagram, using that tool to share … Continue reading →

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My Revelation on Instagram

Posted on December 1, 2017 by bookjunkie

I bit the bullet & revealed myself, sort of, on Instagram. My real name is Shanti & I love the fact that in Sanskrit it means peace. I dislike confrontation or conflict, am always seeking peace. I’m rather a passive … Continue reading →

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Feeling Optimistic

Posted on November 16, 2017 by bookjunkie

My oncologist confirmed a week ago that I have stage 4 endometrial cancer. She also mentioned that my tumour type shows I’m not a good candidates for immunotherapy which is a concern. I have what is called microsatellite instability. I … Continue reading →

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