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Tag Archives: death
#4. Letter to my Papa
My biggest worry is forgetting. I want you never to be forgotten, but lately my memory has taken a hit after two rounds of chemo and the general anaesthesia that comes with surgeries. This is why, even though I’ll probably … Continue reading
#3. Letter to my Papa
I feel lonely without you. I thought the vacuum wouldn’t remain for this long, but it has for almost 19 years now. Me missing you is a testament to what a good father you were. I didn’t realise it then, … Continue reading
#2. Letter to my Papa
It’s strange that when you were around, this tone that I’m using in these letters, would sound unnatural and extremely awkward. I used to talk to you in such an abrupt manner filled with such cockiness. I’m not a confident … Continue reading
Thoughts about Our Existence
As I get older, reality doesn’t seem as solid anymore. Everything feels hazy. Almost dream like. I absolutely can’t process that I’m 51 already and 52 next. Past the dreaded milestone (I also have survivor’s guilt as in why did … Continue reading
Posted in Midlife Musings, When Work Sucks
Tagged advice, aging, death, grief, Life, midlife, thoughts
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Grief
I needed to find some distance, before I wrote this post. A lot of it is just too painful, locked away somewhere in my sub-conscience, revealed in my recurring dreams. I understand now that grief is the intense longing. No, … Continue reading
23rd March 2015
Singaporeans won’t forget the day we lost a giant – an immeasurably brilliant leader. Can’t think of Singapore without thinking of Lee Kuan Yew. Even if we didn’t agree with the methods we can’t help, but admire what he has … Continue reading
Posted in Midlife Musings
Tagged death, grief, Lee Kuan Yew, loss, personal, respect, Singapore, thoughts
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Illuminating Near Death Experience
I am so thankful that my aunt shared this video with me. It just spoke to me as I am constantly living in fear and worry. While watching this, that feeling abated for a while. I really need to explore … Continue reading
Posted in Health & Wellness
Tagged Anita Moorjani, Bible miniseries, cancer, coma, comfort, death, Diogo Morgando, fear, heaven, hope, Jesus, Life, music video, near death experience, wellness
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Our Shooting Star
Thinking about someone very close to me today. Someone we lost. Someone who is always on my mind even if it’s been a few years. Time becomes immaterial when you lose someone, although time does help you cope. He had … Continue reading
Movies About Hope & Faith: Jeff Who Lives at Home & Salmon Fishing in The Yemen
Watched two movies recently. Jeff Who Lives at Home and Salmon Fishing in The Yemen. Both tell very different stories, but I found a similar theme of hope and faith. The slacker movie appealed to me a lot more. I … Continue reading
Posted in Midlife Musings, Movies
Tagged death, destiny, faith, father, grief, hope, Jeff Who Lives at Home, loss, Movie, movies, Salmon Fishing in the Yemen, sweet, touching
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Beautiful Articulate Bobbi Kristina in an interview with Oprah
I felt so moved by this interview that Oprah had with Bobbi Kristina about the loss of her mum Whitney Houston. It’s pretty hard to watch, but I am blown away by how articulate and strong she is. Lights flickering, … Continue reading
Posted in Midlife Musings
Tagged Bobbi Kristina, death, grief, interview, Lights, loss, Oprah, Science, signs, strong, Video, Whitney Houston
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National Museum of Singapore: Masterpieces from the Musee d’Orsay, Paris (Part 5 of 6)
Was absolutely awestruck by this painting when I saw it on the lovely Imp’s blog. The contrast of the orange blanket and the black of the angel of death was the first thing to strike me. There is a sadness … Continue reading
Posted in Singapore Living
Tagged Art, beautiful, beauty, death, Dreams and Reality, Life, Living, Musee d'Orsay, museum, National Museum, painting, Paris, personal, photography, photos, Singapore, special exhibition, travel, young girl and death
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What Wabi Sabi Means to Me
What is Wabi Sabi? I see it as the appreciation of the imperfect and transient. A reminder that we too, are passing through this life, but for a moment. In a Wabi Sabi home, a flower is placed in a … Continue reading
Posted in Health & Wellness
Tagged acceptance, beautiful, beauty, death, decay, design, flower, garden, imperfect, Life, light, Living, meditation, Minimalist, nature, simple, spiritual, transient, wabi sabi
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My Grief, Resentment & Desire for Happiness
Update 10/10/11: I know this was a hard one to respond to, but I really appreciate the notes you’ve left and just the good energy you always send my way. Some days I’m down and some days I’m up and … Continue reading
Posted in Midlife Musings, Movies, Music
Tagged afterlife, anger, anxiety, beloved, Bullies, dad, death, deja vu, depression, despair, eternity, faith, family, father, feelings, Frank Sinatra, grief, grieving, happiness, loss, love, Michael Buble, Movie, parent, parents, personal, positive energy, rage, resentment, rituals, sadness, spirituality, That's Life, Traditional, Tree of Life
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Utterly Shocked & Incredibly Saddened by the Death of Steve Jobs
We all knew Steve Jobs was ill, but to still hear it, the news that the man behind Apple is no more, is still shocking. I think me and the rest of the world have been in denial since we … Continue reading
Posted in Culture & Society
Tagged Apple, death, genious, loss, passing, Steve Jobs, Video, young
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Grief & Healing: Fix You by Coldplay
A song that spoke to me when I was pining for my dad, was ‘Fix You’. It was no surprise to learn that Chris Martin wrote the song for his wife after she was shattered by her father’s death. It … Continue reading
Books: Salman Rushdie’s Luka and the Fire of Life
I wanted so much to like this book and I actually found it pleasing from the onstart, but somehow I found myself skimming through in the middle. This is after all a book for children that is meant to appeal … Continue reading
Posted in Blogging & Writing
Tagged affectionate, aging, Art, author, book, books, death, Life, literature, Living, Luka, Luka and the Fire of Life, Milan, mortality, older parents, parents, personal, Salman Rusdie, son, Video, writer, writing
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A Father’s Tribute to His Daughter Zoe
The father happens to be the founder of Ted TV, Chris Anderson, and this is the moving tribute in pictures to his firstborn Zoe who passed away at just 24. I just feel compelled to share the link here. In … Continue reading
Posted in Midlife Musings
Tagged Chris Anderson, daughter, death, father, grief, Life, loss, pictures, sorrow, Ted TV, Zoe
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Miserable After the Reunion
I am debating whether to write about this at all, but I feel compelled to since all I feel like doing right now is cry. But I just feel numb. You know those times when you feel like crying, but … Continue reading
Posted in Midlife Musings
Tagged 40's, aging, anxiety attack, being different, blogging, cab, cars, claustophobia, culture, death, depressed, doormat, expectations, fourties, friends, grief, happiness, Life, Living, married, mid-life crisis, miserable, misery, norms, Panic Attack, partner, personal, reunion, sadness, school reunions, single, singlehood, situational claustrophobia, social anxiety, social anxiety disorder, societal norms, society, taxis, unique, unmarried, women, writing
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Feeling Giddy with Happiness on New Year’s Day
After my dreary post on New Year’s eve, I went over to my aunt’s place for our annual family New Year’s eve party and had a blast! We talked about strange things like the Mayan prediction that the world is … Continue reading
Posted in Midlife Musings
Tagged 2012, aunts, BBQ, butterfly, Cousin, cousins, culture, death, family, Food, garlic bread, grief, happiness, lemon meringue pie, Life, Living, love, Mayan prediction, New Year, party, personal, photography, photos, uncles
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When All a Scene Needs is an Elton John Song
The song Rocket Man fit the season finale of Californication so well, it was mind blowing. That plus terrific wordless acting from the achingly beautiful British actress, Natascha McElhone (she reminds me of Meryl Streep). The fact that there are … Continue reading
Posted in Music
Tagged Almost Famous, Art, beautiful, beauty, Californication, death, Elton John, emotion, Entertainment, Ewan McGregor, grief, happiness, Life, Living, love, Moulin Rouge, music, Natascha McElhone, Nicole Kidman, pain, romantic, sad, Season 3 Finale, Sir Elton John, sorrow, Soundtrack, Tiny Dancer, tragedy, women
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The One Thing I Wish I Could Tell My Younger Self
The one thing I wish I could tell my younger self would be not related to my career, education or money errors, but just this – to not take my father for granted and to have treasured him when I … Continue reading
