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My Uncle relating to me the Story of when his Father Died in 1960 & How They All Coped

It sounded pretty traumatic to me. For all the 7 children ranging in ages from 10 to 24. My uncle was 17 years old and that was the year he had to prepare for his O levels. They received the … Continue reading

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#4. Letter to my Papa

My biggest worry is forgetting. I want you never to be forgotten, but lately my memory has taken a hit after two rounds of chemo and the general anaesthesia that comes with surgeries. This is why, even though I’ll probably … Continue reading

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#3. Letter to my Papa

I feel lonely without you. I thought the vacuum wouldn’t remain for this long, but it has for almost 19 years now. Me missing you is a testament to what a good father you were. I didn’t realise it then, … Continue reading

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#2. Letter to my Papa

It’s strange that when you were around, this tone that I’m using in these letters, would sound unnatural and extremely awkward. I used to talk to you in such an abrupt manner filled with such cockiness. I’m not a confident … Continue reading

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Thoughts about Our Existence

As I get older, reality doesn’t seem as solid anymore. Everything feels hazy. Almost dream like. I absolutely can’t process that I’m 51 already and 52 next. Past the dreaded milestone (I also have survivor’s guilt as in why did … Continue reading

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Grief

I needed to find some distance, before I wrote this post. A lot of it is just too painful, locked away somewhere in my sub-conscience, revealed in my recurring dreams. I understand now that grief is the intense longing. No, … Continue reading

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23rd March 2015

Singaporeans won’t forget the day we lost a giant – an immeasurably brilliant leader. Can’t think of Singapore without thinking of Lee Kuan Yew. Even if we didn’t agree with the methods we can’t help, but admire what he has … Continue reading

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Illuminating Near Death Experience

I am so thankful that my aunt shared this video with me. It just spoke to me as I am constantly living in fear and worry. While watching this, that feeling abated for a while. I really need to explore … Continue reading

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Our Shooting Star

Thinking about someone very close to me today. Someone we lost. Someone who is always on my mind even if it’s been a few years. Time becomes immaterial when you lose someone, although time does help you cope. He had … Continue reading

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Movies About Hope & Faith: Jeff Who Lives at Home & Salmon Fishing in The Yemen

Watched two movies recently. Jeff Who Lives at Home and Salmon Fishing in The Yemen. Both tell very different stories, but I found a similar theme of hope and faith. The slacker movie appealed to me a lot more. I … Continue reading

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Beautiful Articulate Bobbi Kristina in an interview with Oprah

I felt so moved by this interview that Oprah had with Bobbi Kristina about the loss of her mum Whitney Houston.  It’s pretty hard to watch, but I am blown away by how articulate and strong she is. Lights flickering, … Continue reading

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National Museum of Singapore: Masterpieces from the Musee d’Orsay, Paris (Part 5 of 6)

Was absolutely awestruck by this painting when I saw it on the lovely Imp’s blog. The contrast of the orange blanket and the black of the angel of death was the first thing to strike me. There is a sadness … Continue reading

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What Wabi Sabi Means to Me

What is Wabi Sabi? I see it as the appreciation of the imperfect and transient. A reminder that we too, are passing through this life, but for a moment. In a Wabi Sabi home, a flower is placed in a … Continue reading

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My Grief, Resentment & Desire for Happiness

Update 10/10/11: I know this was a hard one to respond to, but I really appreciate the notes you’ve left and just the good energy you always send my way. Some days I’m down and some days I’m up and … Continue reading

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Utterly Shocked & Incredibly Saddened by the Death of Steve Jobs

We all knew Steve Jobs was ill, but to still hear it, the news that the man behind Apple is no more, is still shocking. I think me and the rest of the world have been in denial since we … Continue reading

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Grief & Healing: Fix You by Coldplay

A song that spoke to me when I was pining for my dad, was ‘Fix You’.  It was no surprise to learn that Chris Martin wrote the song for his wife after she was shattered by her father’s death. It … Continue reading

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Books: Salman Rushdie’s Luka and the Fire of Life

I wanted so much to like this book and I actually found it pleasing from the onstart, but somehow I found myself skimming through in the middle. This is after all a book for children that is meant to appeal … Continue reading

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A Father’s Tribute to His Daughter Zoe

The father happens to be the founder of Ted TV, Chris Anderson, and this is the moving tribute in pictures to his firstborn Zoe who passed away at just 24. I just feel compelled to share the link here. In … Continue reading

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Miserable After the Reunion

I am debating whether to write about this at all, but I feel compelled to since all I feel like doing right now is cry. But I just feel numb. You know those times when you feel like crying, but … Continue reading

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Feeling Giddy with Happiness on New Year’s Day

After my dreary post on New Year’s eve, I went over to my aunt’s place for our annual family New Year’s eve party and had a blast!  We talked about strange things like the Mayan prediction that the world is … Continue reading

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When All a Scene Needs is an Elton John Song

The song Rocket Man fit the season finale of Californication so well, it was mind blowing. That plus terrific wordless acting from the achingly beautiful British actress, Natascha McElhone (she reminds me of Meryl Streep).  The fact that there are … Continue reading

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The One Thing I Wish I Could Tell My Younger Self

The one thing I wish I could tell my younger self would be not related to my career, education or money errors, but just this – to not take my father for granted and to have treasured him when I … Continue reading

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