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Tag Archives: father
What I Dreamt
It was very vivid. I was desperately trying to text my dad. I wanted to text him that I miss him so much, because he’s been away for two weeks and also that I love him so much. The desperation … Continue reading
What I Admired Most About My Father (My Darling Papa)
I decided to pose the same question to myself and found myself floored. The word admiration seemed so distant and didn’t quite cover it. A primary school composition answer would be “He was the most handsome and intelligent person to … Continue reading
Posted in family, Grief, Midlife Musings, Singapore Living, Trauma
Tagged family, father, gratitude, grief, love, papa
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What I Admired Most about My Father (Partner Edition)
His penmanship comes to mind. It was beautifully and artistically rendered. Calligraphy in fact. I admired his cool signature. He had to stop schooling at Primary 3 because he was biologically the eldest kid and had 5 or 6 younger … Continue reading
Posted in Culture & Society, family, Singapore Living
Tagged father, history, Life, Living, personal, Singapore
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What do you Admire Most about your Father? Question posed to my Uncle, Aunt & Mum
I’ve been exploring prompting questions to ask my relatives, and I thought this was a good one. It really doesn’t matter if the answer goes a bit off tangent as the key goal is to prompt memories about a loved … Continue reading
Posted in Culture & Society, family, History, Midlife Musings, Singapore Living
Tagged Aunt, father, grandfather, grandparents, history, Life, uncle
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#5. Letter to my Papa
Papa, so often in the past 19 years, there have been world events and even just local events that I want to talk to you about. Just so much of life is happening and it’s not fair that you’re missing … Continue reading
Posted in Grief, Midlife Musings
Tagged dad, father, grief, loss, love, papa, personal
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#4. Letter to my Papa
My biggest worry is forgetting. I want you never to be forgotten, but lately my memory has taken a hit after two rounds of chemo and the general anaesthesia that comes with surgeries. This is why, even though I’ll probably … Continue reading
#3. Letter to my Papa
I feel lonely without you. I thought the vacuum wouldn’t remain for this long, but it has for almost 19 years now. Me missing you is a testament to what a good father you were. I didn’t realise it then, … Continue reading
#2. Letter to my Papa
It’s strange that when you were around, this tone that I’m using in these letters, would sound unnatural and extremely awkward. I used to talk to you in such an abrupt manner filled with such cockiness. I’m not a confident … Continue reading
Why I Take Lots of Photos
I’m referring to photos I take of family. It’s a simple reason. It’s because I wish I had more photos with my dad. I do have my memories of sweet times with him but the photos help jog my memory … Continue reading
Movies About Hope & Faith: Jeff Who Lives at Home & Salmon Fishing in The Yemen
Watched two movies recently. Jeff Who Lives at Home and Salmon Fishing in The Yemen. Both tell very different stories, but I found a similar theme of hope and faith. The slacker movie appealed to me a lot more. I … Continue reading
Posted in Midlife Musings, Movies
Tagged death, destiny, faith, father, grief, hope, Jeff Who Lives at Home, loss, Movie, movies, Salmon Fishing in the Yemen, sweet, touching
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Downton Abbey & Memories
I’ve been hooked by the magic of Downton Abbey. The characters feel so real to me and I think about them even after the show is over. I feel concern for them. Is that silly or what? I’m the same … Continue reading
Posted in Midlife Musings
Tagged British, characters, dad, Downton Abbey, drama, father, love, romantic, series, thoughts, TV
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Not Feeling Well
Have been really ill (as in, almost passed out ill) and I just hope I recover before my birthday. Never been ill on my birthday before and don’t want to set a new record. Everyone in my family is ill … Continue reading
Posted in Midlife Musings
Tagged birthday, depression, father, happy, ill, Life, Musings, parents, personal, sad, sick, thoughts
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My Grief, Resentment & Desire for Happiness
Update 10/10/11: I know this was a hard one to respond to, but I really appreciate the notes you’ve left and just the good energy you always send my way. Some days I’m down and some days I’m up and … Continue reading
Posted in Midlife Musings, Movies, Music
Tagged afterlife, anger, anxiety, beloved, Bullies, dad, death, deja vu, depression, despair, eternity, faith, family, father, feelings, Frank Sinatra, grief, grieving, happiness, loss, love, Michael Buble, Movie, parent, parents, personal, positive energy, rage, resentment, rituals, sadness, spirituality, That's Life, Traditional, Tree of Life
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Steve’s Firstborn: Lisa Brennan-Jobs
I am a sucker for father daughter stories and recently I have been captivated when I stumbled upon an article about Steve Jobs’ eldest child. I had not heard about Lisa Brennan till today. She is a writer and just … Continue reading
Posted in My Celebrity Addiction
Tagged beautiful, beauty, blog, blogger, dad, father, first born, interviews, Lisa Brennan, oldest, quotes, Steve Jobs, Stunning, writer
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Home by Edward Sharp and the Magnetic Zeros (& Little Alexa on Ellen)
This blog is about Singapore, but I do often feel compelled to talk about things that move me, that come from outside this tiny island. Lately I have been moved by the song Home by Edward Sharp and the Magnetic … Continue reading
Grief & Healing: Fix You by Coldplay
A song that spoke to me when I was pining for my dad, was ‘Fix You’. It was no surprise to learn that Chris Martin wrote the song for his wife after she was shattered by her father’s death. It … Continue reading
To Blog or To Read
Please pardon my lack of blogging. You see, I am so engrossed in the Peter Mayle novel that I’m reading that even though I have tons of photos I haven’t posted them yet. I am also overwhelmed by the tons … Continue reading
Posted in Blogging & Writing
Tagged aging, Art, blogging, books, British, dad, father, Food, getting older, gourmet, hungry, Ishiguro, Kazuo Ishiguro, Life, light, Living, Mayle, personal, Peter Mayle, reading, taste, wit
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A Father’s Tribute to His Daughter Zoe
The father happens to be the founder of Ted TV, Chris Anderson, and this is the moving tribute in pictures to his firstborn Zoe who passed away at just 24. I just feel compelled to share the link here. In … Continue reading
Posted in Midlife Musings
Tagged Chris Anderson, daughter, death, father, grief, Life, loss, pictures, sorrow, Ted TV, Zoe
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Doesn’t Feel like Christmas
Sigh….no singer’s voice today can match the beauty of Karen’s Carpenter’s alto tone…. It stopped feeling like truly Christmas when I lost my father, so this song reminds me of him. I am not feeling particularly depressed, because B cheered … Continue reading
Posted in Singapore Living
Tagged beautiful, childhood, Christmas, dad, father, Glee, grief, Karen Carpenter, Life, Living, loss, Merry Christmas, Merry Christmas Darling, papa, personal, Santa, Santa Claus, song, Video
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The One Thing I Wish I Could Tell My Younger Self
The one thing I wish I could tell my younger self would be not related to my career, education or money errors, but just this – to not take my father for granted and to have treasured him when I … Continue reading
Paris Jackson Tells Oprah that Michael was the Best Dad and Made the Best French Toast
In a really sweet video Paris and Prince talk about what it’s like being at school after being home-schooled all their lives. Paris is such a calm, highly articulate and intelligent young girl. She’s so beautiful too and seems to … Continue reading
Posted in My Celebrity Addiction
Tagged beautiful, beauty, Blanket, celeb, Celebrities, celebs, children, cute, dad, Entertainment, family, father, father's love, interview, Katherine, Life, Living, love, Michael Jackson, Oprah, Paris, Paris Jackson, people, pretty, Prince, TV, Video, YouTube
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