Category Archives: Anxiety

My Hysterectomy gave me a release I never expected

Till age 45 I still felt a vacuum inside and a longing for a child. It’s something I could tell no one. Most of my friends had kids and I felt alienated from them. Even at this late age it … Continue reading

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My Greatest Worry is that Health Insurance Terms & Premiums Keep Changing

The Insurance companies blame the doctors and even the patients, the doctors point out that insurance companies have high management and sales commission costs too. In the end the patient is the one who suffers, especially if they have a … Continue reading

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My Partner’s Thoughts on Aging

Decided to ask B as well, after sharing my mum’s refreshing optimistic viewpoint in the last post. He’s usually a logical pessimist, while I’m a more emotional anxious person and we don’t always agree, so I was surprised to find … Continue reading

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Aging Sucks

No matter what I hear about aging giving you more wisdom etc, to me it just plain sucks. I feel like myself on the inside, but the outside is betraying my identity. Don’t think I’ve changed much since my thirties … Continue reading

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Was the Pre-Smart Phone & Pre-Globalisation Era Truly Superior?

I tend to wax nostalgic, wistful for the bygone era – the nineties. I’ll admit bias, as it also happened to be the most carefree, healthiest and happiest time of my life. So I automatically connect, no smartphone and connectivity, … Continue reading

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Why I Always Reach For Food

Wish I didn’t succumb to this, but I do, I always do. The lure of tasty food. I eat especially when I’m upset or often when I’m bored. Always for a celebration. Food makes me so happy and it’s what … Continue reading

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Thought Process – Extreme Anxiety

I can’t sleep. Intense fear and anxiety. God please help me. Please let everything be ok. Please let it all go back to normal. I’m so worried. I’m afraid to fall asleep, because I’m afraid to wake up and face … Continue reading

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The Bravest Writer I’ve Met On WordPress – Janet

janetvdepression.com/ I’m so impressed at how Janet is so unafraid to unburden her heart and in doing so has helped me. She has made me count my own blessings. She has made me not feel so isolated in my own … Continue reading

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Feel So Happy Meeting with Two of My Cousins After Almost 4 Years

I have social anxiety, but I don’t feel it with people I’m comfortable with like my cousins. I practically saw them grow up, being the much older cousin. They were the cutest toddlers. It’s true what they say about cousins … Continue reading

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Grateful for Relaxing Moments: Flat Whites & Lattes at Cosy Cafes

It’s when I feel the most relaxed outside. I like going back to the same places. Cafe Aux Bacchanale and Da Paolo Gastronomia. Familiar friendly faces, good quality and comfy chairs. I do have social anxiety as I imagine many … Continue reading

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Tambuah Mas: Indonesian Food in Singapore (& A Visit to the Ophthalmologist)

This place has been around for decades, but I haven’t been here since the 90’s. Very delicious at the Paragon branch. My sister treated us after a visit to the ophthalmologist. Eyes were dilated, so everything was blurry. It still … Continue reading

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My History

Some blogs are truly engaging. Often I am so drawn in that I feel compelled to leave a comment. Usually the writer has been incredibly generous and brave with their life story. I can’t help but wonder, am I wasting … Continue reading

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Anxiety: Why Am I Wired This Way?

My brain has been wired by trauma to always think of the worse possible outcome, so that I can be prepared. I’m constantly in fight or flight mode. It’s a terrible state to be in and I wish I wasn’t … Continue reading

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Grief

I needed to find some distance, before I wrote this post. A lot of it is just too painful, locked away somewhere in my sub-conscience, revealed in my recurring dreams. I understand now that grief is the intense longing. No, … Continue reading

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Can I Go Back to the Nineties Please?

I must be missing out I think, as I watch people get ecstatic on social media, posting jubilant memes in response to Singapore lifting some covid restrictions. Alcohol consumption will soon be allowed after 10.30 pm and live music. You … Continue reading

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It’s a Lonelier Place with Devices

I know that devices have given us so many conveniences. In an emergency, when a lorry knocked down my eldest cousin, my mum had to rush to a neighbour’s house to use the telephone to call his mum, her elder … Continue reading

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