Category Archives: Midlife Musings

Some Days I Can & Other Days I Just Can’t

Posted on February 23, 2023 by bookjunkie

I can be pretty hard on myself. I think I’m too lax, but that’s what my partner and mum tell me. I am trying desperately to regain my fitness. It gets harder as you’re aging and I suppose even harder … Continue reading →

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An Introvert Who Likes People

Posted on February 16, 2023 by bookjunkie

I am not a good conversationalist. I like it when friendly strangers speak to me, but I always feel like I respond in an awkward manner. My partner tells me that I look approachable unlike him. I think I am … Continue reading →

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No More Masks on Trains or Buses

Posted on February 15, 2023 by bookjunkie

I was nervous when I heard the news that from Valentines Eve, no less, the rule to wear masks was being removed. You’d think I should be jumping for joy. Back when the rule was imposed, old me would have … Continue reading →

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I’m Concerned About Injuries

Posted on February 14, 2023 by bookjunkie

I wish I could push myself to the extreme the way I did without worry in my twenties. That’s one of the hardest parts about aging. I used to walk long distances and swim countless laps in the University pool. … Continue reading →

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#18. Simple Joys: A Dragon Dance

Posted on January 30, 2023 by bookjunkie

Just when I was thinking my life is so humdrum, I heard a cacophony of cymbals and drums and headed towards it. I felt so uplifted and blessed to be perfectly on time for a dragon dance. And in my … Continue reading →

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Feel Like I Have Nothing Significant to Share Right Now

Posted on January 27, 2023 by bookjunkie

It is why I hardly write. I only write when I feel the compulsion. It can’t really be forced especially with regards to matters of the heart. Also I am now extremely self conscious about the oversharing I did shortly … Continue reading →

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13 Days Into the New Year

Posted on January 12, 2023 by bookjunkie

This post will be all over the place as I cram thoughts about these several days into one post. I’m getting used to the psoriosis. I also now realise that the daivobet steroid gel has worked after a month. Some … Continue reading →

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It’s Another New Year & I’m Feeling Hopeful

Posted on January 1, 2023 by bookjunkie

That’s exactly what I love about the start of the year. It gives me the possibility of renewal and hope. It was lovely to wake up to sweet new year texts from my aunties uncle and partner. Texts of today … Continue reading →

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It’s So Easy to Fall Out of a Routine of Good Habits

Posted on November 28, 2022 by bookjunkie

I fell out of my routine since my last holiday. You see, my routine was very much a forced thing. I was waking up pre dawn, as early as 4.30am, even though I’m naturally a night owl, and going to … Continue reading →

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Thankful for My Anxiety for One Reason

Posted on November 26, 2022 by bookjunkie

I never ever thought I’d actually be thankful for my anxiety. But there’s one reason. It confirms that I’m not a psychopath. If you can’t tell, I’ve been watching a lot of true crime. I’m fascinated by what would prompt … Continue reading →

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Confused & Conflicted (Beauty is in the Eye of the Beholder)

Posted on November 16, 2022 by bookjunkie

I don’t feel old, but I feel old in comparison to those under 30 especially. Grateful to learn from them as they introduce me to a new world. New terms and new ways of looking at the world. A kind … Continue reading →

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Have Not Been Writing

Posted on November 9, 2022 by bookjunkie

I don’t feel an urge to write when I feel I can’t be completely honest. It’s like – what’s the point? In my entire life I have never lied other than doing it to spare someone’s feelings. Like an insecure … Continue reading →

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Insecurity

Posted on October 7, 2022 by bookjunkie

I’m always second guessing myself and wracked with insecurity. I wonder if there was ever a time in my life when I was confident, and the answer would be hardly ever. If at all, it would be for a fleeting … Continue reading →

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When My Faith is Shaken

Posted on October 5, 2022 by bookjunkie

When someone I think is highly intelligent, like Ricky Gervais, talks about evidence and no proof there is a God I feel horrified as I listen, because I don’t want to agree. I don’t want my skeptical brain to concur. … Continue reading →

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Ceylonese Singaporean

Posted on October 2, 2022 by bookjunkie

I am so excited that a novel set in Sri Lanka has been shortlisted for the 2022 Booker prize and I’m hungry to read it. My partner was the one who alerted me to it. He knows me so well. … Continue reading →

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5 Things I Thought I Would Have when I was a Child: Letting Go of My Expectations

Posted on October 1, 2022 by bookjunkie

This is my exercise in letting go of expectations. Sadly life never turns out the way you expect for many, but there have also been treasured joys I never expected as well. When I was a kid I always imagined … Continue reading →

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My Childhood: The Beach & What I Seek in Travel

Posted on September 30, 2022 by bookjunkie

As a child I didn’t have truly good memories of the beaches in Singapore. My sister and I often developed huge painful welts on our upper arms and always thought it was because we were allergic to sea water. We … Continue reading →

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My Childhood: Garden Stories & Jaffna Cousins

Posted on September 30, 2022 by bookjunkie

I miss our small tropical garden. Of course, as these things go, I didn’t appreciate it till it was reduced to just a tiny patch devoid of any fruit trees. I miss the Japanese roses my mum tended to in … Continue reading →

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My Blog is a Work in Progress

Posted on September 26, 2022 by bookjunkie

It’s never the finished product, but more like a dairy entry. A diary entry that I can rework easily. I keep editing as I discover embarrassing errors (mostly due to autocorrect), and new information, especially for my biographical posts. I … Continue reading →

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Evolution of my Blog

Posted on September 22, 2022 by bookjunkie

When I first started out blogging actively and regularly in 2010, it was mostly superficial posts on celebs, food and touristy things. It made life exciting. Being a tourist in your own country. These are often my more cheerful posts. … Continue reading →

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Were there Tasks You Hated Doing as a Child?

Posted on September 22, 2022 by bookjunkie

I’m asking myself questions and often I go off on a tangent, but that’s my purpose. My method of jogging my memory before it all fades. For me, as I was not made to do any chores, it was mostly … Continue reading →

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Bus Ride: Living Deliberately

Posted on September 22, 2022 by bookjunkie

Raindrops on the big glass panel. The coolness of a drizzly morning. Looking out I see teenaged joy. Two on a bike. An old lady with a blue umbrella dragging her trolley on the way to get her groceries. Bell … Continue reading →

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