Category Archives: Midlife Musings

It’s So Easy to Fall Out of a Routine of Good Habits

I fell out of my routine since my last holiday. You see, my routine was very much a forced thing. I was waking up pre dawn, as early as 4.30am, even though I’m naturally a night owl, and going to … Continue reading

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Thankful for My Anxiety for One Reason

I never ever thought I’d actually be thankful for my anxiety. But there’s one reason. It confirms that I’m not a psychopath. If you can’t tell, I’ve been watching a lot of true crime. I’m fascinated by what would prompt … Continue reading

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Confused & Conflicted (Beauty is in the Eye of the Beholder)

I don’t feel old, but I feel old in comparison to those under 30 especially. Grateful to learn from them as they introduce me to a new world. New terms and new ways of looking at the world. A kind … Continue reading

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Have Not Been Writing

I don’t feel an urge to write when I feel I can’t be completely honest. It’s like – what’s the point? In my entire life I have never lied other than doing it to spare someone’s feelings. Like an insecure … Continue reading

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Insecurity

I’m always second guessing myself and wracked with insecurity. I wonder if there was ever a time in my life when I was confident, and the answer would be hardly ever. If at all, it would be for a fleeting … Continue reading

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When My Faith is Shaken

When someone I think is highly intelligent, like Ricky Gervais, talks about evidence and no proof there is a God I feel horrified as I listen, because I don’t want to agree. I don’t want my skeptical brain to concur. … Continue reading

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Ceylonese Singaporean

I am so excited that a novel set in Sri Lanka has been shortlisted for the 2022 Booker prize and I’m hungry to read it. My partner was the one who alerted me to it. He knows me so well. … Continue reading

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5 Things I Thought I Would Have when I was a Child: Letting Go of My Expectations

This is my exercise in letting go of expectations. Sadly life never turns out the way you expect for many, but there have also been treasured joys I never expected as well. When I was a kid I always imagined … Continue reading

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My Childhood: The Beach & What I Seek in Travel

As a child I didn’t have truly good memories of the beaches in Singapore. My sister and I often developed huge painful welts on our upper arms and always thought it was because we were allergic to sea water. We … Continue reading

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My Childhood: Garden Stories & Jaffna Cousins

I miss our small tropical garden. Of course, as these things go, I didn’t appreciate it till it was reduced to just a tiny patch devoid of any fruit trees. I miss the Japanese roses my mum tended to in … Continue reading

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My Blog is a Work in Progress

It’s never the finished product, but more like a dairy entry. A diary entry that I can rework easily. I keep editing as I discover embarrassing errors (mostly due to autocorrect), and new information, especially for my biographical posts. I … Continue reading

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Evolution of my Blog

When I first started out blogging actively and regularly in 2010, it was mostly superficial posts on celebs, food and touristy things. It made life exciting. Being a tourist in your own country. These are often my more cheerful posts. … Continue reading

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Were there Tasks You Hated Doing as a Child?

I’m asking myself questions and often I go off on a tangent, but that’s my purpose. My method of jogging my memory before it all fades. For me, as I was not made to do any chores, it was mostly … Continue reading

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Bus Ride: Living Deliberately

Raindrops on the big glass panel. The coolness of a drizzly morning. Looking out I see teenaged joy. Two on a bike. An old lady with a blue umbrella dragging her trolley on the way to get her groceries. Bell … Continue reading

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What I Admired Most About My Father (My Darling Papa)

I decided to pose the same question to myself and found myself floored. The word admiration seemed so distant and didn’t quite cover it. A primary school composition answer would be “He was the most handsome and intelligent person to … Continue reading

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What do you Admire Most about your Father? Question posed to my Uncle, Aunt & Mum

I’ve been exploring prompting questions to ask my relatives, and I thought this was a good one. It really doesn’t matter if the answer goes a bit off tangent as the key goal is to prompt memories about a loved … Continue reading

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When Was Your First Plane Ride?

I posed this question to my family members. For me it was at age 10 (my sister was 9) on board a very rickety Garuda Airline to Medan, Indonesia and we saw the beautiful Lake Toba. For my mum it … Continue reading

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One on One is Best for Me

Since the pandemic I realise more and more that I’m more comfortable having one on one conversations. No small talk for me. Life is too short for that. It’s why I find making new friends hard. I also don’t have … Continue reading

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Is Having Instant Information Helping Us More than Hurting Us?

Well for one thing, my concentration is not as good as it used to be with all these new distractions. But these distractions are oh so enticing. It’s no surprise that Tik Tok has grown exponentially to become the most … Continue reading

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What Do Kids Like? Through the Generations

When I was a kid the most fun I had was with my cousins, aunties and uncles. Wish I could relive just that part of my childhood. It was so sweet and joyous. We played cards like seven diamonds, ‘crocodile … Continue reading

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Worse Case Scenario

Many passages in Salman Rushdie’s Autobiography ‘Joseph Anton’ stood out for me, but this passage in particular. He would not live his life by the worse-case scenario. That would turn him into their prisoner. He was nobody’s prisoner. Salman Rushdie … Continue reading

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Blessed

I’m blessed with the best little angels and always want to take the time to record my deep gratitude. If one day they ever read this, I want them to know how much they mean to me. Actually at every … Continue reading

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