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Category Archives: Midlife Musings
Being Human
The inadequacy I feel is crushing. I can’t believe I am here. How did I even get here? I know the various traumas. I feel like a broken recorder. No one likes to hear complaints. Well perhaps you won’t mind … Continue reading
Posted in Cancer, Midlife Musings, Singapore Living, When Work Sucks
Tagged feelings, Life, Low confidence, personal, self esteem, shame
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Why I Always Reach For Food
Wish I didn’t succumb to this, but I do, I always do. The lure of tasty food. I eat especially when I’m upset or often when I’m bored. Always for a celebration. Food makes me so happy and it’s what … Continue reading
Posted in Anxiety, Midlife Musings, Singapore Living, Trauma, When Work Sucks
Tagged abuse, child abuse, childhood, fat shaming, Food, trauma
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#5. Letter to my Papa
Papa, so often in the past 19 years, there have been world events and even just local events that I want to talk to you about. Just so much of life is happening and it’s not fair that you’re missing … Continue reading
Posted in Grief, Midlife Musings
Tagged dad, father, grief, loss, love, papa, personal
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Thought Process – Extreme Anxiety
I can’t sleep. Intense fear and anxiety. God please help me. Please let everything be ok. Please let it all go back to normal. I’m so worried. I’m afraid to fall asleep, because I’m afraid to wake up and face … Continue reading
Looking Forward to Being Less Sedentary
Being cooped up at home is definitely not healthy (mentally or physically) and I look forward to walks outside when the covid wave passes and the weather permits. I have to avoid the sun as I’ve had sun damage and … Continue reading
Posted in Covid, Midlife Musings, Singapore Living
Tagged covid, Life, Living, Mental Health, park, sedentary, Singapore, walks
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Trying to Help Myself
I tend to build up negative scenarios in my head that never materialise in real life. Often they have to do with failure and rejection. Often these scenes appear in my nightmares when I try « not to think » … Continue reading
Posted in Midlife Musings
Tagged failure, fear, feelings, insecurity, nightmares, Sri Lanka, thoughts, writing
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10 Things I Took for Granted During Covid Lockdown
1. Having peace, quiet and space to be able to relax and think. I’m tired of Corporations entering the sanctity of home through noisy Zoom meetings. 2. Being able to take public transport and have that independance, without the intense … Continue reading