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Hollow

I don’t even hope for happiness. All I hope for is peace of mind and no more of this zero self esteem. It has plummeted so low and I feel like a total failure. I just have to keep writing … Continue reading

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Hermit Tendencies

I am increasingly becoming a social recluse. I often wish I could make myself disappear to avoid painful interactions. My old social care-free self seems like a lifetime ago. And perhaps I was never really that social, but just going … Continue reading

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I’m Not Normal

I was wondering whether to write about this. Was thinking about it for the past three days. Sometimes I write posts in my head but never type them out. Was lying in bed feeling anxious again. It’s the reason why … Continue reading

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Exploring how to Find Inner Peace

Wow. What Jim Carrey expresses is something I have tormented myself with as well. Wish it was easier to live in the moment rather than to worry about future events that haven’t yet occured. Sometimes things we imagine will be … Continue reading

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My Grief, Resentment & Desire for Happiness

Update 10/10/11: I know this was a hard one to respond to, but I really appreciate the notes you’ve left and just the good energy you always send my way. Some days I’m down and some days I’m up and … Continue reading

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The Anxiety of Singapore’s Work Culture & In Praise of Idleness

I am increasingly unable to bear the crushing anxiety that bears down upon me nightly. It is the reason for the insomnia and daily nightmares. I am in a constant state of fear and guilt. Guilt arising from any form … Continue reading

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HDB Properties in Singapore: What Happens After the 99 Year Lease is Up?

I have always wondered about what happens when you HDB lease is up, and here’s a detailed write-up about it by Alvin on a blog all about Tiong Bahru Estate. It made me wonder what would prompt young people to … Continue reading

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Famous People Paralysed by Panic Attacks

Shania Twain’s Panic Attack when Confronting the Best Friend who Stole her Husband. Nicole Kidman’s panic attacks after her break-up with Tom Cruise. Britney Spears had panic attacks before her world tour in 2009 Robert Pattison of Twilight fame suffers … Continue reading

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Oprah Talks about Panic Attacks

This is a very old clip, but I never watched this episode before, and it’s so relevant to me as I have been suffering from panic attacks and the worse thing for me is other people seeing me in that … Continue reading

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I Wish Singapore Hospitals Would Get Open MRI Machines for Claustrophobic Patients

I didn’t even know this option was available till I searched. Even more about this new technology here. I am writing this post as I myself have severe claustrophobia, and someone close to me has to go through an MRI … Continue reading

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Video: Dr Ang of SDP Talks about the 2009 Recession, Job Loss & Stress

I can so relate to this. A job is so much part of your identity and it can be devastating to be unemployed. The worries can be intense. Dr Ang also talks about job pay cuts and how this affects … Continue reading

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The Anxieties of a Control Freak: Visit to the Dentist

This year I am determined to sort of face my fears – within reason of course. One of them is visiting the dentist. It’s not the pain I am afraid of, but the lack of control. I am becoming such … Continue reading

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Always the Same Feeling on New Year’s Eve

A kind of panic. New Year’s eve always takes me by surprise.  I think it’s days away and then it’s suddenly right in my face. Feels like it sneaked up on me.  I think it’s a feeling of wanting time … Continue reading

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Loving Solitude and Silence

I used to be a very sociable person in my twenties. Going to noisy clubs with the music on full blast seemed exciting and fun. It was a new life experience. Since then, big life changing moments and growing older, … Continue reading

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10 Things You May Not Know About Panic Attacks

When I first heard about panic attacks triggered by unusual causes I was one of the guilty ones who immediately thought ‘strange‘. I now can relate to why Billy Bob Thorton might be afraid of antiques and Nicole Kidman of … Continue reading

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Mad Men Cast Interviews: Jon Hamm Suffered from Chronic Depression and Took Antidepressants

I am glad when celebrities share details about their mental illnesses. It makes things easier for the rest of us. Jon Hamm’s revelation that he took medication for his depression is very significant. There is quite a stigma related to … Continue reading

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The Sunrise and Why I Didn’t Fancy ‘Inception’

I love seeing the morning sky. The mornings always make me feel more hopeful than the nights. My nights are filled with anxiety and a sense of unfulfillment that ironically make me too wound up and tense, to sleep. When … Continue reading

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My Panic Attacks Terrify Me

I have been reluctant to put this out there, but I have had a change of heart. As I write this I am still afraid and extremely self conscious, but I hope baring my soul will bring this issue to … Continue reading

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Finding the Rainbow

There’s this negative person in my life who thinks that there is nothing I can do right. She constantly nags me and keep me up all night in a state of perpetual anxiety. She is my worst critic. She makes … Continue reading

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Attempting Fiction (The Interview)

Mila wiped her clammy hands on her new charcoal skirt and adjusted her white blouse.  Willing herself not to loose her balance she walked into the room.  It had been months since she had worn proper shoes.  The new shoes … Continue reading

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Insomnia

I know the reason for my insomnia.  I am wound up every night feeling that I have not fully used my day.  I am filled with an anxiety that I have not made any significant progress towards a better future. … Continue reading

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