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Thoughts about Procrastination, Anxiety & Punctuality

Someone wise whom I spoke to recently, told me that she resolves her anxiety by doing something. Often she does something physical like go for a walk. This is so true. I find that when I actually do something, I’ve … Continue reading

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Anxiety: Why Am I Wired This Way?

My brain has been wired by trauma to always think of the worse possible outcome, so that I can be prepared. I’m constantly in fight or flight mode. It’s a terrible state to be in and I wish I wasn’t … Continue reading

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Constant Feeling of Futility & the Perfectionist Tendency

I’m trying to convince myself that it’s better to get something done than nothing at all. I have this perfectionist all or nothing tendency. Even if, in my eyes it falls short of my goal for the day I shouldn’t … Continue reading

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Feeling Extreme Anxiety & Worthlessness

Been feeling especially insecure lately. Exceptionally down emotionally. Don’t feel like a worthy human being. Or at least in this world that values superficial things and status. This world where bullies thrive and aggression is rewarded. I just want peace … Continue reading

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Been Stuck, & About Those Library Books I Need to Return Pronto

The words haven’t been stuck but I’ve been reluctant to share what’s on my mind as it all seems just too self-indulgent or worried my private thoughts may be misconstrued. Now and then I do get depressed and anxious over … Continue reading

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Time Well Spent vs Time Badly Spent

We all have a fixed amount of time and at the end of it we all die, so I’m reminding myself to not waste a precious second, if I can help it. It’s spurred me to make this list. A … Continue reading

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Happiness Gift that Banishes Negativity for a While

I need an off switch for my mind. Here I am, awake at 4am and unable to go back to sleep due to worry. What better to do than to compose a blog post. Haven’t been updating the blog lately … Continue reading

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Worries & Wishes

Wish I could stop being such a worry wart but I think it’s genetically programmed in me to be anxious. Sometimes that can be a good thing because I tend to get things done due to anxiety, but when the … Continue reading

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No More Texting or Tweeting in Bed

I feel a need to declare this on my blog so that I will be accountable and embarrassed if I fail. Have tried to stop bringing my phone to bed, but I always give in to the temptation. It’s an … Continue reading

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Hollow

I don’t even hope for happiness. All I hope for is peace of mind and no more of this zero self esteem. It has plummeted so low and I feel like a total failure. I just have to keep writing … Continue reading

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