Category Archives: Midlife Musings

Kim Kardashian is Tone Deaf & Offensive on Variety Magazine

Posted on March 12, 2022 by bookjunkie

I was deeply offended hearing Kim Kardashian insult ordinary folk and the less privileged in a video posted by Variety. She rudely said “Get your f***g ass up and work! “ I was glad to hear the voice of reason … Continue reading →

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Miss Travel So Much

Posted on March 10, 2022 by bookjunkie

My father instilled in me a love for travel and some of my best memories are of car rides to Malaysia with him in the seventies. After I lost him suddenly, I was plagued with situational claustrophobia and panic attacks. … Continue reading →

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Constant Feeling of Futility & the Perfectionist Tendency

Posted on March 4, 2022 by bookjunkie

I’m trying to convince myself that it’s better to get something done than nothing at all. I have this perfectionist all or nothing tendency. Even if, in my eyes it falls short of my goal for the day I shouldn’t … Continue reading →

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Ukraine

Posted on February 26, 2022 by bookjunkie

Even if my writing has value to only one person, (namely, my mum), it will be worth putting my heart and soul into it again. I’ve been experiencing so many technical issues on my blog and that’s the main reason … Continue reading →

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Identity

Posted on February 12, 2022 by bookjunkie

In Singapore your identify is vey much tied to the job title you hold, the company you work for, your marital status and the number of children you have. It’s the most common question you get asked and for me … Continue reading →

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Masks

Posted on January 28, 2022 by bookjunkie

I hope to attend a course as soon as we don’t have to wear masks anymore. I have fond memories of the basic French class I attended with my Aunt at the Alliance Francaise Singapour 14 years ago. The teacher … Continue reading →

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Been Reading Inspirational Blogs

Posted on May 9, 2016 by bookjunkie

Been reading inspirational blogs by women going through the cancer journey, surgery chemo and the whole works. I admire them so much and often their heartfelt posts make me tear. Just want to reach out and have some kind of … Continue reading →

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Hard to Concentrate

Posted on April 24, 2016 by bookjunkie

It’s been so hard to concentrate. I bring a book to my chemo sessions and so far after 8 sessions I haven’t read a single word. Somehow the brain fog is even worse during the session. It feels like a … Continue reading →

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Clueless Before Cancer

Posted on April 21, 2016 by bookjunkie

1. I had no idea that it was the chemo that caused side effects like loosing your hair. I actually thought it was the cancer itself that caused hair loss. Now I feel silly. 2. I was afraid of Chemotherapy … Continue reading →

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Phantom Pony Tail & Other Things After Chemo

Posted on April 20, 2016 by bookjunkie

I tend to keep my hair tied up, off my neck, because of the sweltering heat in Singapore. But now after chemo and without hair I still tend to forget, & my hands reach back to retie my pony tail … Continue reading →

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What Bothers Me the Most About Loosing My Hair

Posted on April 18, 2016 by bookjunkie

What bothers me most is not what I imagined in the beginning. Before the chemo and corresponding hair loss started. Of course it was devastating to see my long locks of hair falling out in clumps. Almost a whole ponytail … Continue reading →

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Things I’m Looking Forward to After I’m Done with Chemo & Radiation

Posted on April 16, 2016 by bookjunkie

I know I’ll never quite be done as I previously imagined (there is no cure for cancer) and will have to be very vigilant with regular scans and blood tests, but being done with chemo and radiation will be great. … Continue reading →

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Dining Out In Singapore During Chemo

Posted on April 13, 2016 by bookjunkie

I would have never given this a second thought before, but it’s awful to never get a chance to dine out. During my first chemo cycle when my drastic hysterectomy (including removal of womb, Fallopian tubes, ovaries, 21 lymph nodes … Continue reading →

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My Chemo Brain

Posted on April 11, 2016 by bookjunkie

It’s real and is worse during the chemotherapy session itself. I can’t do more than one thing at a time and find it a huge effort to listen and respond to people talking to me. Just listening and trying to … Continue reading →

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Thinking About How to Revive Myself

Posted on April 11, 2016 by bookjunkie

I had a plan to blog about my most recent trips to Danang, Perth and Sydney, but the amount of photos I took make the task overwhelming. But I will attempt it bit by bit. Hope I can point out … Continue reading →

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Loosing Hair with the Chemo

Posted on April 7, 2016 by bookjunkie

I was dreading loosing my hair due to the chemo and prayed that I would be the exception especially when it came to my eyebrows and eyelashes. My oncologist told me that it will all definitely fall out eventually. (The … Continue reading →

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10 Things I’m Grateful for & Why Oddly Enough the Cancer Feels like a Blessing

Posted on April 5, 2016 by bookjunkie

I’m in a bright side of life mood right now & I’ll update this list as I recall more sliver linings. It’s making me see how much everyone cares. My Uncle and Aunt who hardly text or take photos with their … Continue reading →

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Revealing Too Much?

Posted on April 3, 2016 by bookjunkie

My partner who is extremely private and protective, was wondering if I was revealing too much about my diagnosis. I kinda grappled with that myself for a moment, which is why it took me so long to start writing about … Continue reading →

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Confused by My Diagnosis

Posted on April 2, 2016 by bookjunkie

I’m still trying to wrap my head around my diagnosis. When I first heard that I had ovarian cancer stage 1c I thought great, it will be all cured with the hysterectomy. But after the surgery and biopsies another cancer … Continue reading →

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Longing to Travel Again

Posted on April 1, 2016 by bookjunkie

I was supposed to go on a trip to Sri Lanka with my mum and sis for their birthdays. We did months of research and planning, but it had to be cancelled due to my need for immediate surgery to … Continue reading →

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Pretty Things

Posted on April 1, 2016 by bookjunkie

Retail therapy is great. Been doing more online shopping where you can often get better prices, but it’s nice to get out of the house to a quiet mall and just browse. It’s relaxing to just gaze at pretty things. … Continue reading →

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Is This Really Happening?

Posted on March 31, 2016 by bookjunkie

Often this whole journey feels unreal. Do I really have cancer? Just some months ago I was fine. This day is also significant as 15 years ago at 11pm I had to have a emergency appendectomy and at that time … Continue reading →

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