I haven’t been writing from the heart. Being afraid of revealing too much and loosing my privacy. Writing from the heart is what comes naturally to me so that’s why I’ve been having writer’s block. It’s a self imposed state. I can only write so much about my boring life, that is the life on the surface without dwelling any deeper. My innermost thoughts lie rampant and I am pacing in my mind unable to share any of it.
The greatest joy I get is seeing the joy on the face of my nieces. They are just magic and I’m so grateful to have time with them. This is one instance in which time is beyond precious. They are growing up in a flash and I don’t want to miss a thing.
They are essentially keeping my previously depressed self at bay and I just needed to record this in case I forget (amnesia) or am unable to tell them when they are grown up.
“Self-imposed state” so true. I understand what you mean. I just wrote a blog post along the same lines. We get in our own way, don’t we, for all sorts of reasons. But I think vulnerability and openness are hard and even threatening. I try to tell myself there is nothing to be afraid of.
You’re so right…just the way you put..I do get in my own way.
don’t say that! your posts aren’t boring, even if you are not talking about yourself or the thoughts that dwell within. i look forward to your posts and am actually missing them! 🙂
You’re very sweet to say that….thanks for the encouragement fellow writer..even though I don’t always comment…I’m a fan of your journal and can relate to a lot that you say, especially about tradeoffs when it comes to a simpler life 🙂
thanks, you’re also being very kind! usually i’m just rambling which is in part due to not having many other things to share. hehe. have a great mid-week! 😀