Tag Archives: thoughts

Some Days I Can & Other Days I Just Can’t

Posted on February 23, 2023 by bookjunkie

I can be pretty hard on myself. I think I’m too lax, but that’s what my partner and mum tell me. I am trying desperately to regain my fitness. It gets harder as you’re aging and I suppose even harder … Continue reading →

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Don’t Know How to Feel About This

Posted on February 20, 2023 by bookjunkie

I’m getting closer and closer to my father’s age, but he’ll never be any older than 61. It’s weird that if I stood next to him now, to strangers, at the very most he would look like an older brother … Continue reading →

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No More Masks on Trains or Buses

Posted on February 15, 2023 by bookjunkie

I was nervous when I heard the news that from Valentines Eve, no less, the rule to wear masks was being removed. You’d think I should be jumping for joy. Back when the rule was imposed, old me would have … Continue reading →

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13 Days Into the New Year

Posted on January 12, 2023 by bookjunkie

This post will be all over the place as I cram thoughts about these several days into one post. I’m getting used to the psoriosis. I also now realise that the daivobet steroid gel has worked after a month. Some … Continue reading →

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Confused & Conflicted (Beauty is in the Eye of the Beholder)

Posted on November 16, 2022 by bookjunkie

I don’t feel old, but I feel old in comparison to those under 30 especially. Grateful to learn from them as they introduce me to a new world. New terms and new ways of looking at the world. A kind … Continue reading →

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Revolted by the Article in Our Newspapers about Hitting Children

Posted on October 6, 2022 by bookjunkie

This article truly triggered me. It presents the findings of a survey that shows 40% of parents use corporal punishment. It doesn’t take any stand against it. It even seems to be excusing it. The study found that younger children … Continue reading →

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When My Faith is Shaken

Posted on October 5, 2022 by bookjunkie

When someone I think is highly intelligent, like Ricky Gervais, talks about evidence and no proof there is a God I feel horrified as I listen, because I don’t want to agree. I don’t want my skeptical brain to concur. … Continue reading →

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Ceylonese Singaporean

Posted on October 2, 2022 by bookjunkie

I am so excited that a novel set in Sri Lanka has been shortlisted for the 2022 Booker prize and I’m hungry to read it. My partner was the one who alerted me to it. He knows me so well. … Continue reading →

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Evolution of my Blog

Posted on September 22, 2022 by bookjunkie

When I first started out blogging actively and regularly in 2010, it was mostly superficial posts on celebs, food and touristy things. It made life exciting. Being a tourist in your own country. These are often my more cheerful posts. … Continue reading →

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Bus Ride: Living Deliberately

Posted on September 22, 2022 by bookjunkie

Raindrops on the big glass panel. The coolness of a drizzly morning. Looking out I see teenaged joy. Two on a bike. An old lady with a blue umbrella dragging her trolley on the way to get her groceries. Bell … Continue reading →

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Truly Frustrated By Sudden Onset And Worsening of Psoriosis

Posted on September 21, 2022 by bookjunkie

I’ll begin on a positive note. I have found that the moisturiser by Cerave helps me quite a bit. At least it makes the situation less aggravated and calms my skin a little bit. I need to buy more as … Continue reading →

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Taxi Drivers Educate Me About Why I Can’t Get A Taxi Post Covid & Interesting Daily Routine Stories

Posted on September 8, 2022 by bookjunkie

I love listening to a new story each time I get into a taxi. Recently the taxi driver who picked me up shared with me that he’s 63 years old, but to me he didn’t look anything past 50 something. … Continue reading →

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Feeling Lost today till a Stranger (not quite actually) & Kind Soul reached out

Posted on August 21, 2022 by bookjunkie

19 years ago I lost my beloved Papa and this whole week (the dates) are a reminder of my nightmares and trauma. I did things today, I would normally enjoy, but I couldn’t quite taste my food or have any … Continue reading →

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Hesitating to Write about My Psoriasis

Posted on August 20, 2022 by bookjunkie

I’ve been stopping myself from sharing on this blog, because I’m afraid of being judged. That’s the danger of being honest and putting yourself out there. I really shouldn’t care about the negativity, because that hinders me from connecting with … Continue reading →

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Oncology Checkup

Posted on August 18, 2022 by bookjunkie

My writing today will be as real as it can get. Just pure emotion. In real time. 9am: Can’t bring myself to wake up and face the day. There is a heaviness of dread. Can’t wait for the ordeal to … Continue reading →

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My Partner’s Thoughts on Aging

Posted on August 13, 2022 by bookjunkie

Decided to ask B as well, after sharing my mum’s refreshing optimistic viewpoint in the last post. He’s usually a logical pessimist, while I’m a more emotional anxious person and we don’t always agree, so I was surprised to find … Continue reading →

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What are the three best decisions you’ve ever made?

Posted on August 7, 2022 by bookjunkie

I keep dwelling on decisions I regret so I am keen to do this more positive exercise instead. In real time. That is, whatever I type right now will be published unedited. 1. Immediately I think of travel. There is … Continue reading →

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Trying to Help Myself

Posted on July 11, 2022 by bookjunkie

I tend to build up negative scenarios in my head that never materialise in real life. Often they have to do with failure and rejection. Often these scenes appear in my nightmares when I try « not to think » … Continue reading →

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#1. Letter to my Papa

Posted on July 7, 2022 by bookjunkie

Papa, the last time I communicated with you was through text. And back then texting was very expensive and I found out you spent S$92 on texts from overseas. Don’t know if it’s accurate, but somehow that number is stuck … Continue reading →

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Thoughts about Our Existence

Posted on July 4, 2022 by bookjunkie

As I get older, reality doesn’t seem as solid anymore. Everything feels hazy. Almost dream like. I absolutely can’t process that I’m 51 already and 52 next. Past the dreaded milestone (I also have survivor’s guilt as in why did … Continue reading →

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Manifesting Travel

Posted on July 4, 2022 by bookjunkie

My cousins put up their results of an online travel quiz, so I was curious enough to do it too. They are a dozen years my junior, so in comparison I really haven’t travelled that much. This survey only looks … Continue reading →

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Perth Trip Day 9: Sad the Trip has Ended but always glad to be home sweet home

Posted on July 2, 2022 by bookjunkie

My mum was especially happy to be home in her comfort zone. I think I was sad to leave as I prefer the cold weather and nature in Australia. But also have been feeling like I’ve finally been let out … Continue reading →

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