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Tag Archives: trauma
Feel Like I Have Nothing Significant to Share Right Now
It is why I hardly write. I only write when I feel the compulsion. It can’t really be forced especially with regards to matters of the heart. Also I am now extremely self conscious about the oversharing I did shortly … Continue reading
Posted in Anxiety, Cancer, Midlife Musings, Trauma
Tagged abuse, cancer, Life, oversharing, relationships, secrets, trauma
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Thankful for My Anxiety for One Reason
I never ever thought I’d actually be thankful for my anxiety. But there’s one reason. It confirms that I’m not a psychopath. If you can’t tell, I’ve been watching a lot of true crime. I’m fascinated by what would prompt … Continue reading
Posted in Anxiety, Midlife Musings, When Work Sucks
Tagged abuse, anxiety, Bullies, empath, personal, psychopath, sexual abuse, trauma, workplace
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Were there Tasks You Hated Doing as a Child?
I’m asking myself questions and often I go off on a tangent, but that’s my purpose. My method of jogging my memory before it all fades. For me, as I was not made to do any chores, it was mostly … Continue reading
Posted in Culture & Society, Midlife Musings, Singapore Living, Trauma
Tagged 70's, 80's, abuse, childhood, Life, math, Tamil, Teachers, trauma
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Writing About Stuff that Troubles Me
I often think I need to get it all out in order to feel better, but often what I feel is self conscious and not any better. You know how some people are so self assured they don’t give a … Continue reading
Posted in aging, Anxiety, Blogging & Writing, Grief, Trauma
Tagged CBT, self conscious, therapy, trauma, writing
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If I Had A Year Left To Live
Whatever time I had I would want to spend with the ones I love. And beyond that I would regret not writing down my life story and what I’ve learnt. All the things I’ve kept hidden which is actually not … Continue reading
Posted in aging, Blogging & Writing, Cancer, Midlife Musings, Trauma
Tagged Food, Life, Living, love, trauma, travel, writing
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For Those Who Grieve? The Unbearable Pain Does Diminish
1. Don’t suppress your emotions. Being “strong” will damage you mentally. Get professional help like counselling early. Do everything in your own time and don’t be rushed or pressured. This is not the best time to make decisions. (I regret … Continue reading
Why I Always Reach For Food
Wish I didn’t succumb to this, but I do, I always do. The lure of tasty food. I eat especially when I’m upset or often when I’m bored. Always for a celebration. Food makes me so happy and it’s what … Continue reading
Posted in Anxiety, Midlife Musings, Singapore Living, Trauma, When Work Sucks
Tagged abuse, child abuse, childhood, fat shaming, Food, trauma
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#6. Letter to my Papa
I wish I didn’t feel this, but I do. I feel like I’m not talking to you, but to myself. It’s the same feeling I got when I was desperately pleading for God to save you and that I would … Continue reading
Anxiety: Why Am I Wired This Way?
My brain has been wired by trauma to always think of the worse possible outcome, so that I can be prepared. I’m constantly in fight or flight mode. It’s a terrible state to be in and I wish I wasn’t … Continue reading
Feeling Extreme Anxiety & Worthlessness
Been feeling especially insecure lately. Exceptionally down emotionally. Don’t feel like a worthy human being. Or at least in this world that values superficial things and status. This world where bullies thrive and aggression is rewarded. I just want peace … Continue reading