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Grief

I needed to find some distance, before I wrote this post. A lot of it is just too painful, locked away somewhere in my sub-conscience, revealed in my recurring dreams. I understand now that grief is the intense longing. No, … Continue reading

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Invisible Chains. I Want to Break Them.

I have these constant feelings of constriction and I just need and want to be free. Free to realise the dreams and vision I always had till I stopped them in their tracks because there came a point when if … Continue reading

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Almost Choked on a Pill the Other Day

Often I read a blog post and I can absolutely relate. I totally understand Rene’s fear of swallowing pills. I hate swallowing pills too. It’s why I never take pills that are good for you like those fish oil tablets that … Continue reading

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Illuminating Near Death Experience

I am so thankful that my aunt shared this video with me. It just spoke to me as I am constantly living in fear and worry. While watching this, that feeling abated for a while. I really need to explore … Continue reading

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Paralysed by Fear

In my head I know all the right steps to take, but I am paralysed by fear. Fear of rejection, fear of failure, fear of not being good enough. I know I shouldn’t care because what could be the worse … Continue reading

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The Agony of Visiting the Dentist

I’ve been hesitating seeing the dentist for the longest time. It’s not that I’m afraid of the dental check-up but more being confined in the chair due to my claustrophobic tendencies. In the end I was ok. I talked myself … Continue reading

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Hollow

I don’t even hope for happiness. All I hope for is peace of mind and no more of this zero self esteem. It has plummeted so low and I feel like a total failure. I just have to keep writing … Continue reading

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