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Tag Archives: depression
What I Wrote Yesterday Feels False
False in the sense that I’m forcing myself to sound more well and upbeat than I am. Inside I’m drowning. I never wrote about the times I have such intense fear that I feel paralysed into inertia. Whether it’s a … Continue reading
Posted in Anxiety, Blogging & Writing, Cancer, Grief, Midlife Musings, psoriasis, Singapore Living
Tagged depression, grief, loss, ptsd, stigma, triggers
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Invisible Chains. I Want to Break Them.
I have these constant feelings of constriction and I just need and want to be free. Free to realise the dreams and vision I always had till I stopped them in their tracks because there came a point when if … Continue reading
Posted in Midlife Musings
Tagged depression, fear, free, Life, longing, Optimism, regrets, thoughts
8 Comments
Hollow
I don’t even hope for happiness. All I hope for is peace of mind and no more of this zero self esteem. It has plummeted so low and I feel like a total failure. I just have to keep writing … Continue reading
Posted in Midlife Musings
Tagged anxiety, burden, depression, fear, feeling, hollow, low, sadness, self esteem, worry, worthless
12 Comments
Crashing
Don’t know how to exist anymore numb to the world a million thoughts crashing halting sleep disappointment upon waking Must keep going maybe there will be light around the corner (My posts make sound hollow these days, but I will … Continue reading
Sadness
No mood or energy to do anything. Your mind is wandering. Everything feels raw and you’re in limbo. Paralyzed by fear. Surreal But you have to go through the motions. Immerse yourself in work and carry on. Be detached and … Continue reading
Hermit Tendencies
I am increasingly becoming a social recluse. I often wish I could make myself disappear to avoid painful interactions. My old social care-free self seems like a lifetime ago. And perhaps I was never really that social, but just going … Continue reading
Posted in Midlife Musings
Tagged anxiety, avoid, depression, fear, hermit, people, personal, questions, social anxiety, society, status conscious, thoughts
18 Comments
Worry & Depression: What Can Get Me Down
I can be up and cheery, but the tiniest things can cause a major mood shift. Someone dropping an insensitive remark can send me into a tailspin of depression. And the person dropping the remark probably did not think of … Continue reading
Posted in Midlife Musings
Tagged depression, diary, melancholy, mood swing, personal, sadness, thoughts
21 Comments
Not Feeling Well
Have been really ill (as in, almost passed out ill) and I just hope I recover before my birthday. Never been ill on my birthday before and don’t want to set a new record. Everyone in my family is ill … Continue reading
Posted in Midlife Musings
Tagged birthday, depression, father, happy, ill, Life, Musings, parents, personal, sad, sick, thoughts
12 Comments
How Many People in Singapore Feel at Times
The advert is directed at something else, but I saw the picture of the woman on the bus, I immediately thought stressed and squeezed. And somehow it was apt that it was raining that day. Some days we all feel … Continue reading
Posted in Singapore Living
Tagged depression, distress, Life, Living, office, Singapore, stress, stressful, work
2 Comments
My Grief, Resentment & Desire for Happiness
Update 10/10/11: I know this was a hard one to respond to, but I really appreciate the notes you’ve left and just the good energy you always send my way. Some days I’m down and some days I’m up and … Continue reading
Posted in Midlife Musings, Movies, Music
Tagged afterlife, anger, anxiety, beloved, Bullies, dad, death, deja vu, depression, despair, eternity, faith, family, father, feelings, Frank Sinatra, grief, grieving, happiness, loss, love, Michael Buble, Movie, parent, parents, personal, positive energy, rage, resentment, rituals, sadness, spirituality, That's Life, Traditional, Tree of Life
20 Comments
Video: Dr Ang of SDP Talks about the 2009 Recession, Job Loss & Stress
I can so relate to this. A job is so much part of your identity and it can be devastating to be unemployed. The worries can be intense. Dr Ang also talks about job pay cuts and how this affects … Continue reading
Posted in Uncategorized
Tagged 2009, anxiety, depression, Dr Ang, Dr Ang Yong Guan, income, job loss, jobless, retrenchment, Singapore, Singaporeans, stigma, suicide, unemployed
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Train Ride to the Airport
Who knew there was still patches of undeveloped land in Singapore? It’s a good thing and I hope there’s no new construction to take up every last little bit of land. Noticed a man who looked out of place in … Continue reading
Posted in Singapore Living
Tagged arrested, Changi Airport, crime, culture, depression, illegal, law, Life, Living, MRT, news, personal, photography, photos, Singapore, society, stigma, suicide, tanah merah, thoughts, train ride, travel
4 Comments
My Confession: I Should Not be Ashamed of This, But I Am
I don’t know why it’s so hard for me to put this out there, but ok here goes – I am unemployed. I am jobless and very ashamed, guilt ridden, and embarrassed about it. The thing is, I wasn’t retrenched, … Continue reading
Posted in Midlife Musings
Tagged Ashamed, bad, bad co-worker, books, bully, Confession, depression, expectations, fear, fears, guilt, hermit, Identity, interviews, job, jobless, Life, Living, mean, office, Office Politics, personal, Phobia, quit, sad, society, Toxic, unemployed, Unemployment, work, workplace, writer
16 Comments
Sigh, If Only Toxic Workplaces Came With a Warning
{Image: Transforming Management} I just feel so tired these days. Do we really lose our energy levels as we get older. I just hate to confirm that stereotype, but it’s turning out to be true. My energy started waning from … Continue reading
Posted in When Work Sucks
Tagged anger, bad, Bad Bosses, blogging, Britney Spears, Bullies, bully, burnout, corporate, culture, demotivation, depression, furious, HR, Life, Living, mad, mean, mean co-workers, mean girls, motivation, office, office bullies, Office Politics, personal, sadistic, sucks, Toxic, Video, women, work, YouTube
5 Comments
Mad Men Cast Interviews: Jon Hamm Suffered from Chronic Depression and Took Antidepressants
I am glad when celebrities share details about their mental illnesses. It makes things easier for the rest of us. Jon Hamm’s revelation that he took medication for his depression is very significant. There is quite a stigma related to … Continue reading
Posted in Health & Wellness
Tagged anxiety, death, depression, grief, health, Jennifer Westfeldt, Jon Hamm, Kiernan Shipka, Life, Living, Mad Men, Mental Health, Sally Draper
2 Comments
Happiness
I love these words and images that convey happiness. The pictures are all from Saying Images. I have a real hard time stopping my worries and living in the present. Love this quote from Kafka.
Posted in Health & Wellness
Tagged Art, beauty, depression, happiness, happy, Images, Life, Living, Mental Health, photos, pictures, quotes
4 Comments
Hugs Are Powerful
I think the best hugs are spontaneous ones and ones where you have real feeling. The always sunny Drew Barrymore said this: {Saying Images} & some other images I love… {Saying Images} Hugging is scientifically proven to be good for … Continue reading
My Panic Attacks Terrify Me
I have been reluctant to put this out there, but I have had a change of heart. As I write this I am still afraid and extremely self conscious, but I hope baring my soul will bring this issue to … Continue reading
Posted in Midlife Musings
Tagged 21 Guns, Agoraphobia, anxiety, Bille Joe Armstrong, car, celeb, Celebrities, Claustrophobia, death, depression, famous people, fear, Green Day, grief, health, Hyperventilate, Life, Living, Mental Health, music, Panic, Panic Attack, Panic Attacks, personal, Phobia, situational claustrophobia, society, Video
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Finding the Rainbow
There’s this negative person in my life who thinks that there is nothing I can do right. She constantly nags me and keep me up all night in a state of perpetual anxiety. She is my worst critic. She makes … Continue reading
Posted in Blogging & Writing
Tagged anxiety, blogging, depression, happiness, inspiration, journal, joy, Life, negativity, personal, positivity, rainbow, sadness, silence inner critic, writing
3 Comments
